Its been a long 2 days... Attempting to pack and work and spend most of the time multi tasking whilst on the phone organising or re organising previous plan.. Im exhausted, drained and a little deflated from the little achievements after all that effort.
Ive half done a bit of everything.. in between being the SuperWoman that everyone thinks I am, chin up and smiling whilst they lay more work or just their own stuff on me.. dont ya love family.. now I sound like im winging.. arrghhh.
Day 2 on my commitment to myself of shedding these kgs is slightly regressing and fading away like all the other promises to myself that get swamped with emotional baggage I let myself take on. My magic powers are fading today..
Thank goodness im not working again until oh god.. Friday! I should just take the week off.. See.. another example of putting myself out for someone else, who prob isnt going to be grateful, thankful or even show up! I should've said no.. That MAGIC word again.
This blogging is quite therapeutic.. Im a little gobsmacked at watching the words as I type... I guess only I know what went on today.. Not about to share it all.. Maybe another time..
It goes on and on. Think Bold and the Beautiful drama with some comedy where everything goes wrong for the hero of the show.. Imagine all the self chatter that really goes on in our heads that we ignore.. well I do, or try to.. and stuff we take on from others..
My chest is tight and heavy today.. Thankfully kids are exhausted and im going to pop them in bed in about 5 mins.. Shower and early bed for me too.. I dont think my brain can cope with much more.
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