IM BACK

Ok..

Ive moved and the fortnight from hell has finally diminished into a 2nd wind or enthusiasm and smiles..
I confess.. Ive eaten a TRUCK LOAD of rubbish.. and thankfully the exercise and energy expelled from moving and packing the house and my gym along with a FABULOUS but crazy 9hour bootcamp last weekend.. which is a whole other post in itself.. Ive probably managed to maintain my bodyfat levels or limit the potential fat I could have gained..

Seriously.. if it were diarised.. It would read 4lt icecream in a week.. packets of crisps...cookies.. chocolate sultanas by the packet.. (im embarrassed but being sincere)  alcohol.. OMG the wine, vodka and cheese and crackers along with all that!... Arghhh.. not sure how much real whole food if any was consumed in this time.. I was running on sugar, fat and adrenalin..No wonder i felt like crap!





Its been only a single day so far just pure whole foods and I already feel AMAZING!
Im PUMPED... Ive been so productive today.. 




Kids to school..Took a Rocking Bodystep Class, Grocery Shop to stock up on veggies, shower, 6 clients, washing, ironing, housework,  telephone calls to Telstra (thats a feat in itself), kids, dinner, baths, bed and just finalising my paperwork and about to get excited about preparing a meal plan to control my calorie intake.  I think this will be the catalyst of getting my extra 6 kgs of my butt..

My Goal!

Im being accountable and honest to you on here.. just like id ask of my clients and take a hard look at what im eating and the  motives behind all the crap I was consuming in stealth..  I think it was laziness, sugar addiction and a feeling on undeserving and apologetic for being the energetic, athletic, buff, vibrant being I used to be..

<- I want this.. I used to be not far from it.. I let myself slide..


 Ive noticed on my journey a few family members feeling intimidated or not sure if it was jealousy.. but a real putting down behaviour toward me and I sucked it up and ran with it.. Perhaps enjoyed the rubbish food along the way and got lost in it.. Moving on.. I feel like ive turned a real corner..

So... Melly is on her way! I've STARTED!

Moving house is horrible

Its been a long 2 days... Attempting to pack and work and spend most of the time multi tasking whilst on the phone organising or re organising previous plan.. Im exhausted, drained and a little deflated from the little achievements after all that effort.

Ive half done a bit of everything.. in between being the SuperWoman that everyone thinks I am, chin up and smiling whilst they lay more work or just their own stuff on me.. dont ya love family..  now I sound like im winging.. arrghhh.

Day 2 on my commitment to myself of shedding these kgs is slightly regressing and fading away like all the other promises to myself that get swamped with emotional baggage I let myself take on.  My magic powers are fading today..
Thank goodness im not working again until oh god.. Friday! I should just take the week off.. See.. another example of putting myself out for someone else, who prob isnt going to be grateful, thankful or even show up!  I should've said no.. That MAGIC word again.

This blogging is quite therapeutic.. Im a little gobsmacked at watching the words as I type... I guess only I know what went on today.. Not about to share it all.. Maybe another time..
It goes on and on. Think Bold and the Beautiful drama with some comedy where everything goes wrong for the hero of the show..  Imagine all the self chatter that really goes on in our heads that we ignore.. well I do, or try to.. and stuff we take on from others..

My chest is tight and heavy today.. Thankfully kids are exhausted and im going to pop them in bed in about 5 mins.. Shower and early bed for me too.. I dont think my brain can cope with much more.
xx

whirlwind

Ok.. Im getting frazzled, tense and not excited anymore about moving house.
We move on Thursday.. I HAVE sooo much to orgainse  (where will i find the time)??  Hold music is the bane of my life today!

Too many phone calls.. too many connection fees, disconnection fees, contract fees, termination fees, new connection fees, adminstration fees for all the other fees.. ive been on hold longer than i was asleep last night..  arghhh.. They are doing my head in..

Deep Breath..

One saving grace.. In the car i practiced Bodystep 76 on the steering wheel lol.. I exercised in my head~  Does that count.. Ill pretend you are nodding..  (funny, but my calves and ankles were aching at high impact and jumping parts.. so maybe it does 'kind of' influence the body or our  subtle energy systems in a way)

OMG
I have 9 mins to be at school at pick up Jack from school !
Ta ta for today!

Just Start Melly

Ok.. this is my first ever blog.. Hello!
I think i do alot of chit chat and jibber jabber on my facebook account.. but I dont really get real about myself.. so here goes.
Thanks to my wonderful friend Kelly.. Im inspired to get real about myself and perhaps document my personal journey.
Not sure how i feel about sharing my personal feelings and secret setbacks.. as I believe in being positive to invite that back to you and not dwell on past mis-behaviours and just move on.. but I really find myself in this 'positive dreamy' behaviour for the past 18mths and not really getting off my butt to make the real changes.
Maybe that's coz im just talking the talk.. and not doing much else.  oh I eat alot! I like eating... I eat crap, icecream and find myself enjoying far too many beverages that OMG are clients going to read this! ?? lol

Well hey, you cant hide a bad diet.. so this is me in the flesh.. You can see it on my but, Im sure they know somethings going on!  In saying that, i exercise HEAPS! Its my job.. I love it.. but im not enjoying the physical rewards that a clean diet entails.. You can NOT out train a bad diet.. LESSON #1. But im not here to lecture you.. Im here to get down and dirty about myself.

So this Blog is called.. Just Start Melly.. Coz I really think.. I just need to START!

Im a PT.. Personal Trainer and Fitness Instructor.. Since relocating from Sydney to Melbourne about 18mths ago, I ironically found myself gain about 8kgs - 10kgs. quickly... the scales vary with varied efforts of alcohol and over indulgence like anyone else.   I seem to not want to shift it. Coz I know what to do.. for crying out loud.. ppl pay me to help them shift it..
Dunno why but I think its time to move away from the why.. and just DO.. and KEEP DOING.. UNTIL its DONE!  Im treating myself like one of my clients now and going to get real and Hard..

So here i am.. admitting to you.. who ever you are in the wild techy side of life..  my inner and hard journey.. Its not a terribly deep one, its a shallow 10kgs that needs to move on from me, yet I know from the 100's of clients i encountered over the years it could possibly be a difficult one!
xx